Child care ?
It was National Breastfeeding Week a couple of weeks ago and I feel like this is a week that celebrates me. I had forgotten how hard it is with a new born, and this reality is hitting me hard; like a big fat load of very heavy bricks landing right on my noggin. Sometimes, when I look at both my kids, I touch their toes, or squeeze them with all the love in my heart and think- I made this ! I nourished this and it grew, for almost 4 years it was literally my blood that fed and comforted, and its happening again. Every little smile, every fingernail I agonize over, every giggle- its me; on tap. But this parenting business is hard. I'm constantly second guessing myself, I seem to have forgotten everything I did to make things better, and Baby 1 seems angelic and so independent compared to this little nugget that just wants me constantly. I feel empty, and the words that used to flow so easily have dried up. All I want to do is read beautiful words written by someone else, and try